January 2009
20 posts
Stars feel like knives, They tell us why...
Today feels so unsettling. I don’t want to go to work, I don’t want to clean, I don’t want to do anything. I just want to crawl back in bed and not wake up.
Made a new friend. [= Very very cool boy. I think he likes me a bit. He seems really cool, wish I had met him sooner…
And I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in...
Jason, Austin, and Amber’s presents have been sent out and mailed. FINALLY have officially got that completely done with. Snuck in a few Valentine’s Day treats, it’s a bit early for that, but I get overexcited when sending stuff to my friends. Can’t help it at all. But if they don’t yell at me for spending money on them, hopefully it will at least put a huge smile on...
Another day I must forced myself to get through…
Last night was miserable. Two friends having a hard day, one nearby and one faraway. Delivered Starbucks and a hug to one, and talked to the other on the phone to help sort it out. But when I’m trying to be a solid wall for my friends, who is mine? >_< Talked to him last night on the phone, like usual he just pretends it’s...
Unforgiveable
He left for Florida and didn’t bother to tell me he got there safe. More interested in getting drunk, flirting with girls and partying it up before the first day back. :/ Caring about my feelings is beyond him, even when all I’m doing is caring about him.
I want to forget. Completely.
Being an afterthought sucks.
I know why I never leave. I’m so afraid to finally see how little I meant to him. Because when I finally leave, I’ll see how unaffected he was, how easy it was to just move on to the next girl. How simple it was to forget about me. And seeing this would absolutely shatter me. Love, it’s such a cruel cruel game we all play. >_<
But leaving is...
I’m so addicted to…
Loving him takes a toll on me…
Shutter →
omfg. Just got done watching this with some friends. I’m done with cameras for a while. lol, I don’t want a creepy Asian man trying to live on my shoulders!!!
Loving Him CD
1,2,3,4
I’m Yours
Birthmark
Come On Get Higer
A drop in the Ocean
Love Story
Crush
Ready When You Are
Whatever it Takes
Addicted
Chasing Pavements
Fall For You
White Horses
If You’re Gone
There’s Nothing
Beautiful
Promise
While I wait for the CD to burn, I shall go shower and then pop off to the dealership to get the car washed and detailed....
Makes me smile even when I’m in such a...
New Years Resolutions
Focus soley on school & work.
Lately I’ve been noticing that the people I’m forced to be around, aren’t the greatest I could have in my life. I’m sick of the drama, the lies and the bullshit. And I’m tired of spending my money on silly things to hang out with silly people. So this year, I want to spend more time making sure I pass all my classes, preferably with...
New Years was horrid. I lost one of the most important people in my life.